Monday, October 3, 2011

Financial Stress

So, I've been very worried about finances lately but it really hit me how broke we are today. I had myself an actual crying meltdown. Luckily my husband had just come home from school and took over with the kids so I could sob in private. Why is it after a good long cry I feel exhausted. Seriously, I feel like I can barely keep my eyes open. There were lots of other little things getting to me but when I saw the bank balance today, I lost it. I know we are not the only struggling family but it's still a huge problem for us.
I run a licensed daycare in my home. For the most part we have had ups and downs with kids coming and going but this has been the toughest financial dry spell we've had. Currently there are 3 kids coming full time but we need 5 to stay afloat (I'm licensed to watch 8). Jason goes to school full time and works nights part time. I have the daycare and go to school in the evenings. I also sell Avon, DoTerra, and sew for a local boutique. My Avon and DoTerra sales are virtually nil and the sewing isn't steady. I am at a loss as to what else to do with the little free time I have left in a week. My husband suggested he quit school to go back to working full time. That was sweet but he is so close to finishing college, just a year and a half left. I have not gone through supporting our family this long while he's at school only to have him quit so near the end. I told him I would leave him if he did that...and I meant it.
I started going to Marinello's School of Beauty this past May. I will be finished by the end of next summer. At the moment that seems so far away. I am studying to be an Esthetician. I prayed a lot about going back to school and I felt spiritually shoved in this direction of education. I am loving school and all that I am learning. For me it has been a delight. I am hoping it will lead to a steady income once I have graduated.
In the mean time, what now? I am going to distribute more flyers in local stores and even branch out to schools and may even go door to door.
All I ask for in the way of help are your prayers.

3 comments:

Nix said...

I can SO relate to this post. Jas and I have been married 20 years and STILL struggle with money... when it becomes overwhelming try to count your blessings, it helps. And don't lose faith, your Heavenly Father loves you and will always be there when you need him.

Carolanne said...

I had one of those crying spells this week too. For similar reasons. Just put your head down and push through. Also, have you considered starting an etsy shop online to sell your sewing? I'm hoping things get better for you soon. And I think you are right about Jason finishing school. It won't be easy, but you will be glad you sacrificed for it.

Amanda said...

Don't worry, my faith is solid. Finances on the other hand, Oi. I have thought about Etsy but I don't have the time or the money to get a line started. I'm mainly frustrated more than anything else.